I was relating an incident—the only one, as far as I can recall—of lucid dreaming, where, in the middle of a dream where I was marveling over a wood carving, my conscious mind told me “if you can imagine it in your dream, you can make it in real life”. I was stunned into waking, and have remembered the wonder of the feeling ever since. After telling others what my mind told me, I threw in the comment that of course, I couldn’t. I was immediately challenged into getting real with myself. Of course I can! My conscious mind was telling me the truth!
Just like the idea of resolutions being fulfilled by taking doable steps, I realize that if I were to try to copy my dream carving without first taking the time to learn the basics, then my statement that I couldn’t do it would be absolutely true. I’d be trying to go from zero to eighty without knowing how to start the engine.
I don’t know if carving wood is something I’d actually try, although my first husband was a very talented wood carver, and I loved to watch him make shapes appear in their fluid forms. I have his tools. I could give it a go.
There are so many things I want to accomplish! Learn to paint, learn ASL and Spanish and French and…, sew a dress, make some dolls, do something creative! My problem is the zero to eighty one. I may have the keys, but I don’t know which vehicle is mine! And, if I were to find it, I’d want to race to the finish line without learning how to control the machine.
Ah, aspirations! I think that for today, I will tackle the things on my to-do list. I may consider which goal I’d like to start, then study step one. Or maybe I’ll leave that for tomorrow.
Such a conundrum!
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