I’m Still Here

 Life has taken a decidedly sweet turn for me in the form of a lover. Not to overshare, but wowie! It is a grand thing!

I continue to do the things which call to my soul: I am a hospice volunteer as well as a singer in Threshold Choir, which also takes me to the bedsides of those who are nearing their transitions from this plane to the next. I’m involved in several book clubs, which feeds my intellect as well as providing the gift of social interaction. I’m training to be a prayer chaplain for my church. 

My point is that these things, all of which are important to me, have not fallen by the wayside due to spending all my energy with my sweetheart. That has happened in the past; I abandoned the important things for the momentary thrill. This set the tone which followed in that the pressing needs were always shuffled to the back of the line, based on the needs of “the one”. Inevitably, this was the breeding ground for resentment. 

There are no positive aspects to resentment. It is the beginning of the end of love and care, growing bigger and stronger each time authenticity is squashed for the expediency of a relationship which actually no longer exists. In 12-Step groups, resentment is called the “number one offender”, often leading the one resenting back to the addiction they’re trying to overcome. It is a negative coping mechanism. 

So while it’s true that I have let this blog falter, it has more to do with the lack of a theme, rather than the time taken by appeasing another. I am, after all, on a journey of discovery and growth in this Earth School, and the lessons just keep coming!

So, hello again. I’ll sneak in from time to time, because writing this is fun, and that’s what it’s all about!